~Fade Away~

When we walk together side by side
Even though we are close together
I can feel the distance that exist between us
So far and far away
I can't held it in my palm
But I can't feel it anymore

I am alone in the darkness
Feel so lonely and scared
My whole body is numb
My heart break in pieces
Like a broken glass
My tears fallen down my chin
Onto the ground

The rain fall down
As if it feel my sadness
I was crying
Shouting out of my hurtfulness
I am alone
Sitting on the wet ground
Without anyone to comfort me
So that I will harden my heart
And masked my feelings
All together
So that I will not hurt again

Pathetic Teacher

I have a teacher that is...how I going to say about her, let's just say she is insane. Well, more insane than I thought last year. This year she change her style to torture student. That is abuse!!! She threatened them for not letting the student to go back but can when you have finish the homework she given that period.

Well, last year many student did not like her a bit even a tiny bit. I don't say hate but dislike her. I think this year it almost a level to hate because she threaten the student to do their homework and test. Really when someone do not like a subject, they won't study hard for that particular subject. It is a miracle that she get into Form 6 teacher. I wonder how.

I mean she do not have the skill to make the student to pay attention to her. Besides that, she answer a question with a question. That teacher is so idiot. When student ask her a question, she ask back the student with a question again. By the way, she also out of topic of the question. Why is this person have qualification of teacher? I'm very curious about it.

I'm Feeling Down

Yesterday was my birthday but I don’t feel happy at all. Well, I expected this situation every year because I hate my birthday near Chinese New Year. Really I am sick so my mood is not that good.

The reason that I hate that yesterday because my friends always whispering to each other every time.  When they went to visiting, they sat together but they did not talked to me or anything. Well, I kinda hurt a lot. But, I can adapt that because they are my friends.

Besides that, they talking about the things that they don’t want anybody to hear. When I’m sitting next to them, they still talking on themselves. Really, am I an invisible people that you have to ignore me.

Many people said that they separated into groups but I think about it. We also doing the same things with them. Two people whispering to each other, other group was talking about somethings else. They don’t have the qualification to say someone.

I have long realize this. But, I don’t want to admit it. Every time  I saw them talking like this, I want to say in their faces and angry at them. Thinking about this make me depressed and sad. Well, the boys are always stay in one group. I think I shouldn’t complain that much but I cannot help it when I saw it every time.

My friend asked me why I’m very quiet. My heart wanted to shout out but I just shook my head and smile a fake one. I am a two-faced person. Outside I am energetic and smiling but inside I am sad and crying. I never felt so lonely. Really, what an eventful birthday. Why I still together with them that the answer I don’t know. Maybe they are still my friends even though they have their own faults. But, I don’t think I can stand on mentality.

Tomorrow is CNY

Haiz...I don't feel the excited of Chinese New Year celebration. In fact, I feel normal, well as normal as I can. Maybe I just looking forward to use my new clothes and going out with my friends. But recently I can't help the feeling of lonely. It is because my birthday is nearing and every year I'm feeling like that.

I don't know why but I feel sad whenever that day is nearing. Because every time is not happy as I expect and all of my friends is not feel at all. I really hope that this year will be different. Even though my relative come and celebrate together but it will be the same as eat together. I not really close to them too. So, in their eyes I am a shy and quiet person. Really I am more to naughty, playful and sadistic person.

I can't really blame them actually. So I really hope that that day I will have a lot of fun together with my friends. And I hope the surprise that Chai Ying said will success.

Going SHOPPING~

Today I'm going shopping with my friends for my CNY clothes at Boulevard. I can say that the price is expensive than normal clothes because it is branded.

I think they only can buy these types of clothes. But I kinda excited to going with them because we plan to visit together.

I can't wait for CNY coming. But after CNY I can't make the time to stop so that I can spend my holidays with my friends and families.

I think CNY this year is the most exciting year~

Just Complainig.....

Haiz....these days I always signing every minute every day. Well, my form 6 life is suck and very stressful. Just for a few months until May, I will have a big test again. Why do the government wanted to change the system? Many people said that we being guinea pig for them. I can't help that I'm slightly agree with them. =_=
We even have to do 5 project and test, test, test. =_=lll  Really being a student is more stressful than a teacher. Have to cope with many things when the system is changed. I thought of quit form 6 after I take my result for last year test but I don't want to leave my friends behind. We hardly seen every day if I quit form 6. Because they will be busy every day with homework and project. Don't say test again.
They still have some activity form school too. Some time I have to think about my future. I kinda lazy to wrk around and like to stay at home. Really this is just complaining the world. -_-
I hope somethings interesting will happen in the future anytime anywhere.

Boring~

I don't know what to do with my exam next week.

By the way, the internet line is fucking suck.

I can't wait for the holidays~ ^^ So that I can put my books aside and relax~

LET'S PARTY~!!!

My Lifestyle

Ellena: *sighed* My life is difficult.
Yue: If life is easy then we don't have to learn many things.
Emrys: *nodded*
Ellena: But I don't want to present to all people. I will be very nervous when everyone stare at me.
Yue: Every university students have to stand up and present their project or assignment. Just conquer it stupid.
Emrys: ......
Ellena: I'm scare I can't learn too because I'm very lazy and I don't like to read books that are boring.
Yue: *sweatdrop* Are you idiot?! If you don't read how you going to have a A's in Form 6.
Ellena: I'm not hardworking as you.
Yue: *smack you head*
Ellena: Ouch! What the hell are you doing? That's hurt.
Yue: Yeah, that good.
Ellena: Why you little-!
Yue: Hey, I'm going to hit you head many times if I heard you say that again. Do you hear me?
Ellena: *muttered curses*
Yue: What did you say? *raised an eyebrow*
Ellena: Nothing! *sweatdrop*
Yue: And why are you so quiet? *turn to Emrys*
Ellena: *nodded*
Emrys: *stared at them*
Yue and Emrys: *stared back*
After a few seconds of silence.
Emrys: Because you guys look funny when you arguing.
Yue: *many vein pops* Why you little fuck-!
Ellena: Calm down. *hold Yue*
Ellena thought: You're a sadistic!

I am Piss!!

SHUT UP THE FUCK!!!!

I AM SO PISS OFF THAT I WANT TO KILL SOMEONE!!!

This is so irritated, annoying and insulted. You are a bastard!! Just because I like to do that, doesn't mean that I cannot do it. I just don't like to talk with you, retard!! Have a common sense, moron!! You say I a nobody so what!! Not that I want to show you. I prefer my mom because she understand me more and she doesn't insult people or force me to do somethings else that I don't like. I want to go to collage so I wait but what do you expect me to just work. I want to learn driving, you also not allowed. What reason is this?!! Well, I know you just don't want people to use your money so that you can buy your things.

Many parents were encourage them to learn driving but you..."Use your own money." Yeah right, I am jealous of their parents because they were strict but they allow them to learn what they want. Sometimes I hope my parents ignore me. Seem like you want someone to follow your footstep. Over my dead body!!!

It seem your daughter have problems, you also did not care. So I just leave there, I prefer to talk with my mom. I always thought that I have ADHD. I think I really have that now because the symptoms are very accurate.

I like to read but they say I playing games. Does reading is wrong? I wonder what problems with their mind anywhere.

Yeah right, wish I were dead or never born is better.

I watch an old movie

I don't know what mood am I but I watch Final Fantasy Advent Children Complete. Like I just say I don't watch Final Fantasy even play the games but I can't help. Cloud is too cute like a chocobo~!!!!

And the fighting scene was great in blue-ray but I can't find the disc anywhere. The movie was airing in 2009. Hell, that was outdated isn't it? O.O

Maybe I kinda boring to stay at home and wait for my friends to call or just wait for next year. Shit, don't say my friends, they too busy at work and I purposely left a month to go out with my friends because next year is going to be very busy with collage and work if my dad allow me to go collage. *mumbled many curse under my breath*

Sorry about that when I get angry I attempted to curse a lot and muttered many.......bad words. ^^

Momento

Title: Momento
Genre: Family, Drama
AN: This is the fanfic of Percy Jackson and the Olympians. Of course it AU. By the way, Percy is a girl in my story. I rewrite this story from my test paper. The real story is quite short so I make it longer and change some events in it. I'm sorry for my bad grammar if you have found wrong about it. I tired my best to change it.

Summary: Percy was living on her own with her boyfriend Nico when her brother, George brought his client daughter to her house. Chris, Annabelth's and Luke's daughter was adopted by Percy because Chris's parent was died in an accident. After many years, Nico and Percy was married and grant a son. They were going to Chris's parent grave.


When I opened the door of my house, something was hugging me. I was shocked and thought 'What was that?' Wait a minute...hugging? When I looked down, I was hugged by a girl at least eight years old. I pulled back and looked at her; she was a beautiful small girl. Her hair was blond tied in a ponytail style and her eyes were gray color with blue outline. It was a beautiful color and I thought of my best friend, Annabelth that had this eyes color.

It had been many years since I last saw her. I wonder what been she doing? Is she still sad about the death of her father? I was pulled back by my thought when I felt a tug on my skirt. I looked at her eyes and asked her. "Little girl, who are you and why are you in my house?"

'Okay, that might be a bit rude but what do I expected that some girl went in my house', I thought sarcastically.

There were only a few people that knew where my house had been and I only gave a spare key to my parents. I picked her up and settled her on my lap on the couch. I asked her how she got in my house; she answered. "Uncle George brings me here and he's at the kitchen cooking some dinner. My mom always tell story about you."

I thought curiously that who was her mother and I looked at her. "Who is your mother? Do I know her?" I asked. When I asked her about her mother, she looked sad but she answered my questions. "My mom is Annabelth. She said that you are her best friend." My eyes widen and I was shocked. Why would Annabelth's daughter could at my house? Why George would bring her here? Is something happening to her parents? I was worried when I heard that and she sound sad when she talked about her mother. I wanted to ask what happened but I held back. Maybe I could ask George about it later.

"Chris, the dinner is ready. Oh! You're back, Percy. We could eat together." George said and went back to the kitchen.

After dinner, George put Chris to sleep in the guestroom. When he came back, he sat at the couch in front of me. There was a moment of silence before George explained to me. "Annabelth was your best friend right?" He asked and looked at me. I nodded and become nervous when he was silence again. Even though my patience was thin but I bit back from snapping at him.

"She was married to Luke." He said after a while.

"What! Luke?" I shouted and stood up.

"Quiet down!" He hissed. I sat back on the couch embarrassingly and let him continued. "Yes, she was married to Luke and don't interrupted me, please." He whispered. I knew that I was quite shock to hear Luke had married to my best friend. I meant, Luke and I had a history together. Well, it been many years and we were adult so he might mature his attitude from high school.

"They were involved in the accident at the high way road. The nurse and doctor had tried everything they could to save them. I hope I can help but I have another patient to look from the accident. They have serious injury and her daughter had a minor injure. I was told to take care of their child because I knew them." He sighed and drunk a glass of water. I hold back my tears in my eyes when I heard the situation. My best friend was dead? I really could not believe it and I wanted to deny it. But, I knew that was impossible. I had to accept it somehow.

"So, who is going to be her guardian? You surely can't make her stay at orphanage." I said after I calmed down.

"No, they have a lawyer to write their will before they died. I have confirmed with the lawyer and read the will. They had named you Chris's godmother so the guardianship will pass to you." He said.

"But I was not ready to take care a child and I haven't married yet. How could I explain to Nico afterward?" I asked him anxiously. George sat beside me and took my hands to his hands.

"I know that you are still young for taking care a child but I can't let her stay at orphanage. You can discuss with Nico later." He said and patted at my shoulder. He went to his bedroom to sleep.

I sat on my couch and thought about having a child in my house. Yes, I like children and I hope I could have a family. But, I have to work and study for my education then I will have someone to take care of Chris. I walked to her bedroom and opened the door slowly. Would she like to stay with me? She and I had just met and I will be taking care of her forever. I hope this would be the best decision for her and me. I will call Nico tomorrow about this. I covered her blanket until her chin and kissed her forehead then went to my bedroom to sleep.

In the morning, I went to wake Chris up while George prepare some breakfast. I opened the door quietly and saw her peaceful face. I sat down at the bed and touched her cheek. She stirred and mumbled under her breath. I giggled at that adorable sight and I touched her shoulder to wake her up.

"Chris, its morning. You might want to prepare yourself for breakfast." I said. She opened her gray eyes and looked at me. "Good morning." She mumbled. Then, she sat up and rubbed her eyes in adorable way. I felt liked want to hug her tightly. "Now dear go wash yourself and go down for breakfast." I told her and I picked my old dress in my drawer for her to use.

"Chris, I put the clothes on the bed. I don't know it fit you or no." I said loudly. I heard an okay and I went to the kitchen.

After that, we ate our breakfast in silence and I always glanced at Chris. She was poking her bacon with her fork but not eating. "Why are you not eating, Chris? Is the food suit your taste?" I asked with a soft voice. "No, the food is delicious and I'm really appreciating them." Chris said. George and I glanced at each other than sighed. "Are you worried that no one taking care of you?" George comforted. Chris nodded.

"How about staying here, Chris? I can adopt you if you want to of course." I smiled at her. Chris looked at me like a hopeless child and her eyes held a hope that someone take care of her. "Well, eat your breakfast. You are going to stay healthy in this house unlike someone." I said bemusedly. Chris giggled and ate her breakfast when George protested m statement.

After five years had gone, I had been lived happily with my family. Today was Annabelth's death anniversary. My family and I were going to visit her grave. When I thought back about it, I would smile sadly. I looked at the photo beside my bed. It's had me, my husband, Chris and my son. When I told Nico about my decision, he was shocked after that he seem to be like that idea. After a year, he was proposing to me. I was very happy when I heard him saying that sentence. "Mom! Dad gonna leave us if we don't hurry." Chris yelled from downstairs.

"Okay, sweetheart." I said back and went downstairs where my family was waiting. "Mummy!" My son cried and hugged me around my waist. We get in the car and Nico drove us to the grave.

"You taking too long, honey." Nico said and kissed my cheek. "I was just thinking." I smiled. Nico looked at me and the kids at the backseat. "About the past?" He whispered.

"You seem to know." I said bemusedly.

"Of course, I know my wife." Nico grinned.

"Ego. Nico, ego." I said sarcastically.

"Right." Nico said with a grin.

"Oh hush." I punched Nico lightly at his arm.

"Hey, I'm driving." Nico complained.

When we reached the grave, we buy a banquet of flower for Annabelth. We all stood in front of Annabelth's grave and Chris put the banquet of flower in front of the grave.

"Mother, I hope you will find father in heaven. I have a wonderful family and I love my mom and dad." Chris said sadly. Dino then turned to Chris and pouted. "How 'bout me?"

"Of course, I love you too." Chris smiled at him and messed his hair. Dino yelped and chased Chris. I smiled when I looked at my children. Nico put his hand around my waist and I leaned at his shoulder. "They are happy isn't it?" I said. He looked at the children and kissed my forehead.

"Yeah." He agreed.

Trust You - Gundam 00 2nd Ending

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away, still
You're always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain buried away by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we'll still connect
I trust that we can meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness, because we're together
We're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore

Who saw the edge of the world?
Who announces the end of the journey?
Even if it's a long night and you can't see the answer now
I want you to advance on the road that you trusted
Because light is waiting ahead of there

The song that you taught me
Is right in the middle of my heart even now
The overflowing drops of feelings
That are resonating together with that kind voice
Warmly trail down my cheeks
I'll become strong; I trust that we're connected
I'm always by your side

I love you, I trust you
These tears keep flowing because of you
I love you, I trust you
You taught me what love was
No matter how you're lost on the road
I'm by your side

Waiting for your love
Always by your side
You're the one that I love
You're the one that I trust
You're the only one

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
I love you, I trust you
Even in sorrow, even in joy
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect all of you

No matter how you're lost on the road
I'm by your side; we're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore

Dear Diary

Angel: ..........................
Me: It's lame I know it. Don't say anything.
Angel: *confused* I haven't say anything. Heck, I didn't even say a word just now.
Me: *sarcasm* Well, now you are talking to me.
Angel: God, I don't know why I bothering to talk with you. *face palm*
Me: Because you love me?
Angel: *eyes widened* Hell no!
Me: *fake tears* You hurt me.
Angel: Ya...ya...*rolled eyes*
Me: I know you love me.
Angel: *muttered* Why I have to stick with you? I can't stand a bit of that.
Me: Are you saying somethings?
Angel: Nothing.
Me: *stared* Really?
Angel: Really.
Me: *stared* Really?
Angel: *vein pop* Really.
Me: *stared* Really really?
Angel: *veins pop* Really! Stop that! It's annoying!
Me: *smirk* Okay.
Angel: *raised eyebrow* Wipe out that smirk. Don't dare you do somethings to me!
Me: *innocent face* Why would I want to do something at you?
Angel: Don't pretend it. I know when your eyes lit up like you have an idea to prank someone.
Me: *smile* Oh really.
Angel: *thinking* I have a bad feelings.
Me: *smile evilly*
Angel: Wh-hey what are you doing?
Me: *smirk* Nothing.
Angel: Then why are you approach me?
Me: I don't know.
Angel: I don't th-AHHHHHHHH! Get off me!!!
Me: No.
Angel: No way. What are you doing? Don't-Hahahahaha!
Me: I found your weakness~
Angel: *gasp* Stop *laughing* Ahahaha!
Me: Right. Its boring you know.
Angel: Yeah.

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

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Holiday is starting

Holidays...
Holidays...
Holidays....*sighing*
Sometimes I hate holidays because it is boring.
I have nothing to do.
Even though I have camping.
Bet it will be boring as hell.
I have nothing to say.