Sickness

*Sighing* I gonna sighing everyday if I gonna sick like this. The weather is not stable and here sometimes raining sometimes sunny. The temperature is up and down.

I hate sick but what can I say. I easily get sick than my other family. The timing is not good only.

That all I want to say.

I have nothing to do.

Kinda bore here.

Irritating

Why would I want to go out with her?! She is so irritating and annoying everyday at home. I should say I hate her but hate is a strong word. How to describe her.....kinda hard to explain my feelings. Let's just say that I was planing some outing with my friends and she wanted to follow so I let her follow. But after that, the mood is slowly demise to tense because she always fight with me for something stupid. Well, I just want to let my feelings out so I could relax later with my friends.

Attitude

Some people their attitude is scam and rude. Well, all of my family are like that except for my mom. I didn't hear she swear before, like never. Yeah right, when someone is helping you, say thank you or be grateful. For me, the one I help is always ungrateful like angry at you when somethings are going wrong or doing wrong. It's make me frustrated and irritated. Well, these people are cannot hope.

Realistic

I'm going to be more realistic because I almost 20 years old. I cannot lazy stay at home even though it is boring at home. But, sometime I don't like an adult...well more like young adult. Adult is boring to me. If I going to be alone, I'm not going to be relax. Hahaha~ I don't know what am I saying now. Not long I'm going to work and study university. Can I complain somethings?

Really, why every time the word come out from my dad mouth is money money money. Is money important? Yes, but money can't buy anything. I would like to say if you want more money then sell your daughter like that. Are all parent like that ask money from children because they take care of us from baby? It is illogical to me. Because money can't pay back the love that given to us.

Doing nothing

Really, what am I doing everyday? I expected to be out everyday and that will be exhausting. Sometime I prefer stay at home but sometime I would like to go out. I don't know what am I writing now. Really boring life......

Holiday isn't like holiday

Injection day is over and it getting my nerve. Really I was shivering in the room when I wait for my turn. Blame the air conditional.

Well the main reason is this two weeks holidays are for nothing because my teachers put an extra class for us. So damn shit!! I wish I could skip the class but one of my teacher (the nagging goose) say if did not come for the class, have to see her and tell the reason. Well, if she is not elderly than me, I will straightforward tell her.

I don't like business marketing this subject. I rather fail my subject dude!! Who cares about that subject anywhere! It will not help the student if the language is not English. So stupid.

I prefer choose other subject maybe not math since I hear that subject very hard to pass with good result.

Tomorrow is Injection

Tomorrow is my last day of injection. Well, the third time is the most painful feel. I really can't imagine how I feel tomorrow. I wish I do not cry like a baby.

By the way, tomorrow is the last day of test!!!! XD YES!!! At last I'm HOLIDAY!!!

But I will be boring till death.

stress Stress STRESS

I am a walking dead body wondering along the streets.

So busy...so busy

Haiz.....I don't know this semester I will be sighing forever. So many homework and project to do. The teachers are chasing the time too. Besides that, November have MUET test too. I will be dead at the end of the year. I'll going to relax at home and play till I get bore.

Every morning I having headache. Is it worth my time and health? No fucking way. This things will going to cut my life till half. Damn it!!!

My Test Result

I have fucking FAIL my subject that is business marketing or in BM pengajiaan perniagaan. More or less the same meaning lah. I don't know I should repeat it or not because I am very sure that I will FAIL it again. Well, I don't think I will repeat the test even though teacher will nag all the way. XP You want stubborn, I'll be more stubborn.

This semester is so STRESS!!!

Haiz.....this semester so many assignment and homework to do. I can say that I put my homework aside but focus on my assignment. Because it is more important. Why the new modular system is so stressful than the terminal? Now, I feel a little regret to go Form 6.

But, I have to think about the collage syllabus. It will be more difficult than Form 6 and it have more assignment in a short period. The test also have to pay money. If fail, study again. >o<

This is life as my teacher always said.

Busy day~

Finally this is the last semester of Form 6 and then I can go play or working. I can do what I want! XD Maybe a bit limited if I find a job. Well, it's last semester so I have so many project and selected subject to study. And the weather is bloody hot. I feel as if I live in the volcano.

Holiday is a boring day

I have two weeks holidays to spend at home doing nothing. I feel bore and restless. I love to go out with friends but they did not invite me or I did not invite them. Well, the problem is I don't have any driving license so I cannot freely went out by myself. I wish I can drive.

What can I say sitting at home doing nothing and my friend did not reply my message too. What a cruel people or they just ignore me. I just know I want to go out!!

Stupid thing

When this Wednesday, I use the ATM machine. Well, I first time use it so I don't know how to use it. And I just stand there like an idiot. I change ATM machine one by one because I don't know how to bank in. So, I just guess it then it correct. I think I gonna piss off this ATM machine because it always sound beep when you stand so long and did not do anything.

I am shocked!!

Sendou Aichi
[Cardfight Vangurad main character]

Sendou Aichi, seiyuu is Yonaga Tsubasa.
And guess is the seiyuu girl or boy?
When the first time I heard his voice in Cardfight Vanguard, I thought the seiyuu was girl. But alas, it was a boy seiyuu. It sound like a girl voice male character. No offened even my sis thought it is a girl when she saw the name.

I still thought that this character is cute. Well, he is very shy and sometimes very confidence. By the way, I like this anime even though it is more or less from Yu-Gi-Oh. But, this anime is more interesting.

What was I think about?

Well, I usually don't think that much just follow my instinct. Sometimes it would be wrong and sometimes it right. But. mostly I was careless about my action. I felt regret about that. Now, I don't know what I am writing actually. What I just think and writing it in this blog maybe it cure my boredom.

Never mind that. Let's describe about my friends. Well, sometimes I think they are my siblings but I not that always talk with them. Actually I am too quiet all the time and they are talking the topic that I don't know. I think I make too many distance with them because as my MUET teacher always say friends will leave you someday but not today.

When my teacher say that phase, I always thought about my friends and I. We are the prefect combination of that phase. Really, I wonder what to I think about but frankly I don't think about anything.

Pains....

I wonder why they don't want to go out when I ask them. Some straightforward say no to me, I still can accept it but two of them always say very lazy lah or what lah. That are the excuse I dislike. Well, I know some of them are very busy with school work not like me.

Sometime I should tell them my frustration of their reject. But it is difficult to say especially I will cry after I say finish. Haiz....I hope I can faster learn driving then I can go out with opposed someone to bring me.

Haiz.......==

I am not excited about tomorrow party. I feel like it gonna same as before or even worst than before. I mean last time every party I feel everyone talk to their gangs and not as a group. Sometimes I feel disappointing with this action. But what can I say? I am an antisocial people. Even my friends find that I always very quiet. By the way, sometimes I feel awkward when I together with them. But, I overcome it easily, maybe not that easy.

Sometimes I wonder did they notice my behavior or no. Or they just don't care about it. Well, it is obvious that I not always together with them anymore and they also rarely invite me out. Are they the one that change or I am the one that change? Maybe I should ask other people.

Now, I am not looking forward to the party anymore. In fact, I feel depress when I think about it.

Troublesome works

Really sometimes I don't like to be a leader or an organizer. They never hear what I say and that make me frustrated every time. My friends always half agree when I ask her to go out together. Well, if she have said earlier maybe I can accept it. But after agree then disagree without reasonable excuse, I don't like it. I hate it actually. I wish I can drive car or have a license so that I can bring my friends. So, she cannot escape from not going out with us.

Sometime friendship is a friendshit.

I'm sick again

Really the weather is fucking hot and cold everyday. It change and change suddenly. Besides that. it make me sick again. From CNY I also sick then a few days only, I sick again. Haiz.....the worst is I have to go to school. If not, I cannot sit my test. I even cannot do any revision.

I hate you sick!! I cannot do anything even drinking my Sandy!! Haiz......I wait for many days and this happen again. My body is very weak.

Now I waiting for until I sleepy since the medicine will make me dizzy.