Celebrate my friend's birthday~

Today is my friend birthday but she is still at Singapore until night then she aboard flight. 7.15pm like that she have reach airport then we celebrate birthday with her. Well, we expect her to be surprise but then she has guess we have plan when her brother phone her that afternoon. *sighing* Thought of want to surprise her, it is a failed attempt but I think she is happy and sad. Maybe one of my friend say it right because she expect many people to come and pick her. Well, I am happy though. We did not eat the cake but give it to my friend so that her family can eat it together. Our stomachs are still full of french fries and buggers at McDonald.

I'm Feeling Down

Yesterday was my birthday but I don’t feel happy at all. Well, I expected this situation every year because I hate my birthday near Chinese New Year. Really I am sick so my mood is not that good.

The reason that I hate that yesterday because my friends always whispering to each other every time.  When they went to visiting, they sat together but they did not talked to me or anything. Well, I kinda hurt a lot. But, I can adapt that because they are my friends.

Besides that, they talking about the things that they don’t want anybody to hear. When I’m sitting next to them, they still talking on themselves. Really, am I an invisible people that you have to ignore me.

Many people said that they separated into groups but I think about it. We also doing the same things with them. Two people whispering to each other, other group was talking about somethings else. They don’t have the qualification to say someone.

I have long realize this. But, I don’t want to admit it. Every time  I saw them talking like this, I want to say in their faces and angry at them. Thinking about this make me depressed and sad. Well, the boys are always stay in one group. I think I shouldn’t complain that much but I cannot help it when I saw it every time.

My friend asked me why I’m very quiet. My heart wanted to shout out but I just shook my head and smile a fake one. I am a two-faced person. Outside I am energetic and smiling but inside I am sad and crying. I never felt so lonely. Really, what an eventful birthday. Why I still together with them that the answer I don’t know. Maybe they are still my friends even though they have their own faults. But, I don’t think I can stand on mentality.

Tomorrow is CNY

Haiz...I don't feel the excited of Chinese New Year celebration. In fact, I feel normal, well as normal as I can. Maybe I just looking forward to use my new clothes and going out with my friends. But recently I can't help the feeling of lonely. It is because my birthday is nearing and every year I'm feeling like that.

I don't know why but I feel sad whenever that day is nearing. Because every time is not happy as I expect and all of my friends is not feel at all. I really hope that this year will be different. Even though my relative come and celebrate together but it will be the same as eat together. I not really close to them too. So, in their eyes I am a shy and quiet person. Really I am more to naughty, playful and sadistic person.

I can't really blame them actually. So I really hope that that day I will have a lot of fun together with my friends. And I hope the surprise that Chai Ying said will success.

CNY is the WORST DAY this YEAR!!!!!

Yes, I hate CNY!!! I fucking Hate it!!!
Every year and everyday I hate that day. Even though it fun and this year not fun.
Because of what??!! Because of SPM!!!!
They tuition everyday and their parents very strict too.
They wouldn't out because they busy of studying!!!
Even you are studying, you also can go out with friends right. If not your head will explosive with freaking knowledge!!!!
And you be C.R.A.Z.Y!!!!!
This like one of my friends very negative and have no confidence.
I also have no confidence but I still have some fun (maybe).
This is why I hate adult. Sometimes I hope that I forever teenage.
Next year is my year to be at hell.
Speak to CNY, I hate it!!