Melancholy

Really, I'm feel melancholy now when I saw my friends' picture at facebook. I don't know why I felt that but I think that they have meet new friends and I just sit at home become neet.

Not say that I don't want to go out from home but by myself is so lonely. Now, my friends all studying in another country. Many of them have separate and did not have time to come back here.

Well, I just working and no continue study so I did not meet new friends.

Sometimes I wish I continue study but sometime I don't. I don't like troublesome work like assignments or exams. But, I would like to meet new people and make new friends.

I really don't have a friends that really with me shopping or going holiday to other places.

That's sound depressing. 

Normal CNY

This year is a depressing Chinese New Year. I might say its boring. Nobody is free to go out visiting or nobody invite me. I must say this year CNY have many incidents happen. Haiz.......

Every year is always like that. Blame my ADHD or ADD. I do not know which I have. Let's put these a side.

This year my family as you can say are sick with either cough or flu. Last year is me the one that get sick. I do not know I should happy or no. Well, this year is a boring CNY. And nobody answer me when I ask when want to go out. They might going back to their university life now.

Haiz....I kinda irritated when my dad always ask why I'm did not going out with my friends. It's like a reality push to my face. Kinda disappointing when I saw others take pictures with gangs.

Cleaning

Owww.....My waist is painful because I was cleaning my room. It's almost CNY so my mom always push me to clean my room.

And when I clean, it must be very clean till I cannot see the dust. That is so OCD. ><

Now, I am very tired and tomorrow I still have plan with my friends too.

New Year

It's FEBRUARY!! And it's almost Chinese New Year~

I hope it's not as boring as last year. It might be a little house to visit. But this year is the year that I spend many money on buying clothes.

Wow~ Really shopping fever~ XD

Irritating

Why would I want to go out with her?! She is so irritating and annoying everyday at home. I should say I hate her but hate is a strong word. How to describe her.....kinda hard to explain my feelings. Let's just say that I was planing some outing with my friends and she wanted to follow so I let her follow. But after that, the mood is slowly demise to tense because she always fight with me for something stupid. Well, I just want to let my feelings out so I could relax later with my friends.

Attitude

Some people their attitude is scam and rude. Well, all of my family are like that except for my mom. I didn't hear she swear before, like never. Yeah right, when someone is helping you, say thank you or be grateful. For me, the one I help is always ungrateful like angry at you when somethings are going wrong or doing wrong. It's make me frustrated and irritated. Well, these people are cannot hope.

Realistic

I'm going to be more realistic because I almost 20 years old. I cannot lazy stay at home even though it is boring at home. But, sometime I don't like an adult...well more like young adult. Adult is boring to me. If I going to be alone, I'm not going to be relax. Hahaha~ I don't know what am I saying now. Not long I'm going to work and study university. Can I complain somethings?

Really, why every time the word come out from my dad mouth is money money money. Is money important? Yes, but money can't buy anything. I would like to say if you want more money then sell your daughter like that. Are all parent like that ask money from children because they take care of us from baby? It is illogical to me. Because money can't pay back the love that given to us.

Boring day~

I don't know what I gonna write. I just pass by here because I saw that my blog is untouched for a long time....I think. So, I just post some boring things to say and then nothing.

Now, I have nothing to say. That's all.

Sighing....

I really don't know what am I doing these holidays. I was wasting my time in front of my computer. It almost school day. Next week I am going to school and watch these teachers faces and homework. DAMN HOMEWORK!!!!

It seem I always ignore my homework everyday when I see it. Sometime I think I should change my ways but it seem my habits is worst than I thought. I going to finish it last minute. I am sure because it is my habit to finish things at last minute. Haiz......when holidays I wish I can go to school to see my friends but at school, I wish I can go home and sleep.

This is my life. What a boring and dangerous life.

Doing nothing

Really, what am I doing everyday? I expected to be out everyday and that will be exhausting. Sometime I prefer stay at home but sometime I would like to go out. I don't know what am I writing now. Really boring life......

Holiday isn't like holiday

Injection day is over and it getting my nerve. Really I was shivering in the room when I wait for my turn. Blame the air conditional.

Well the main reason is this two weeks holidays are for nothing because my teachers put an extra class for us. So damn shit!! I wish I could skip the class but one of my teacher (the nagging goose) say if did not come for the class, have to see her and tell the reason. Well, if she is not elderly than me, I will straightforward tell her.

I don't like business marketing this subject. I rather fail my subject dude!! Who cares about that subject anywhere! It will not help the student if the language is not English. So stupid.

I prefer choose other subject maybe not math since I hear that subject very hard to pass with good result.

stress Stress STRESS

I am a walking dead body wondering along the streets.

So busy...so busy

Haiz.....I don't know this semester I will be sighing forever. So many homework and project to do. The teachers are chasing the time too. Besides that, November have MUET test too. I will be dead at the end of the year. I'll going to relax at home and play till I get bore.

Every morning I having headache. Is it worth my time and health? No fucking way. This things will going to cut my life till half. Damn it!!!

My Test Result

I have fucking FAIL my subject that is business marketing or in BM pengajiaan perniagaan. More or less the same meaning lah. I don't know I should repeat it or not because I am very sure that I will FAIL it again. Well, I don't think I will repeat the test even though teacher will nag all the way. XP You want stubborn, I'll be more stubborn.

This semester is so STRESS!!!

Haiz.....this semester so many assignment and homework to do. I can say that I put my homework aside but focus on my assignment. Because it is more important. Why the new modular system is so stressful than the terminal? Now, I feel a little regret to go Form 6.

But, I have to think about the collage syllabus. It will be more difficult than Form 6 and it have more assignment in a short period. The test also have to pay money. If fail, study again. >o<

This is life as my teacher always said.

Busy day~

Finally this is the last semester of Form 6 and then I can go play or working. I can do what I want! XD Maybe a bit limited if I find a job. Well, it's last semester so I have so many project and selected subject to study. And the weather is bloody hot. I feel as if I live in the volcano.

Disappointed

I cannot have high hope on my friends, any of them because it will crush my dreams. It make my chest hurt a lot. This is life but welcome to my life. Why our friendships become like a fragile thread that can break anytime. Sometimes I say this is how human live. If don't have hurt then don't have love.

I hope we can close our distance but that is just my dream and it will never realize.

Holiday is a boring day

I have two weeks holidays to spend at home doing nothing. I feel bore and restless. I love to go out with friends but they did not invite me or I did not invite them. Well, the problem is I don't have any driving license so I cannot freely went out by myself. I wish I can drive.

What can I say sitting at home doing nothing and my friend did not reply my message too. What a cruel people or they just ignore me. I just know I want to go out!!

Exams...

Next week I going to have STPM examinations. Well, at least I can relax and having my holidays after the tests. I have to think positive so that I will not nervous. I hope I won't having stomachache before the exam on Tuesday.

That's all I gonna say because I very bore sitting in front of my laptop. XD

Yummy~

Just now I buy Starbucks drink at Jalan Song. I buy a bigger size than last time. I don't know why I want to buy drink from there because I never thought of buy drinks from Starbucks. It is expensive than milk tea from Ding Tea or Chatime.

Wow drink this my tummy feel full.