Yesterday was my birthday but I don’t feel happy at all. Well, I
expected this situation every year because I hate my birthday near
Chinese New Year. Really I am sick so my mood is not that good.
The reason that I hate that yesterday because my friends always
whispering to each other every time. When they went to visiting, they
sat together but they did not talked to me or anything. Well, I kinda
hurt a lot. But, I can adapt that because they are my friends.
Besides that, they talking about the things that they don’t want
anybody to hear. When I’m sitting next to them, they still talking on
themselves. Really, am I an invisible people that you have to ignore me.
Many people said that they separated into groups but I think about
it. We also doing the same things with them. Two people whispering to
each other, other group was talking about somethings else. They don’t
have the qualification to say someone.
I have long realize this. But, I don’t want to admit it. Every time I
saw them talking like this, I want to say in their faces and angry at
them. Thinking about this make me depressed and sad. Well, the boys are
always stay in one group. I think I shouldn’t complain that much but I
cannot help it when I saw it every time.
My friend asked me why I’m very quiet. My heart wanted to shout out
but I just shook my head and smile a fake one. I am a two-faced person.
Outside I am energetic and smiling but inside I am sad and crying. I
never felt so lonely. Really, what an eventful birthday. Why I still
together with them that the answer I don’t know. Maybe they are still my
friends even though they have their own faults. But, I don’t think I
can stand on mentality.
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